Bad Day
Yesterday's great, today's bad. Early this morning, school. As usual, nothing big happened. Just that the WHOLE DAY, baby and i didnt talk at all. Then something bad happened which i dont wish to say it. It was an accident which became an argument. Then, on the way back home, was wondering if i should let go of the relationship. Cos' i'm seriously tired of having to face all these coldness. I hate cold shoulders!!!! I felt like shit, TOTAL SHIT. Letting go? hah.. I thought of it SO EASY. Then, back home. First thing, went to check out my msn. Baby left a msg for me saying, "It's time to change your display pic and let people know that you're not attached =)" i couldnt take it and started bursting into tears. okay, after this, i realised how much i dont wanna lose Elijah!! He left an email too, saying how fucked up he is about THAT accident during lunchbreak. And he was saying i didnt take initiative but... i dare say this, i DID... i really DID. Last night, he didnt get to me the WHOLE night. I still left him messages before i go to bed. Then, was hoping that i'll receive a message from him in the morning but it didnt happened. So i dropped him ANOTHER message. As usual, didnt reply. Even after school, i gave him a call on his cell. Didnt answer, of course. Then to school, i got all the cold shoulders. Initiative? Hah! Didnt i took the first moves? And it's not like i didnt want to talk to him in school. It's just that he ever said before that in such a situation, i SHOULD NOT talk to him and SHOULD leave him alone. So yes, thats what i did. Anyway, knowing that baby wants a break up. Without even thinking, i changed and rushed down to his block area. Called him so many times, left him a lot of messages and he ignored all. Crying and waiting for THREE FULL HOURS. (I didnt know Sherlyn will ever do that.) Finally, he messaged me. You wouldnt wanna know how he sounded when he talks to me through the phone and in person. And the things he said? *OUCH* After the rudeness, the hurtful words, the pullings, off he went. Once again, walking away from me. *OUCH again* Sat on the floor and cried like hell. People walking pass me just wouldnt stop being a KPO! Looked at me as if they never seen someone cried before. Yea, after much talking on the phone with baby, FINALLY he didnt want to let go. I dont believe i did all these. Putting down my pride and did the extend. Yes, it's SHERLYN we're talking about. and probably she loves him too much. Oh by the way, i didnt know those people are such great pretenders! Dont you people have your own life to live? So stop poking your nose on other people's business. Get a life!
With love, on Tuesday, August 15, 2006
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
